Feelings…

…so many!

> I am happy for I have the best life partner one can have. Donno how he manages to keep up with all my mood swings and make me smile rather laugh even in the saddest of the moments.

> I am upset for a lot many useless things. I know they are useless..but they are memories. Memories of the times that I hate to think of.

> I am excited for our first long n personal vactaion. This time its not home , not family but US!!

> I am astonished at how fast this year has passed by! Never realised its almost an year that we got married !!

> I am tired..very tired of my daily schedule. Its been so long I had a relaxed sleep.

> I am worried about my health. Have not been keeping well since over a month. Lack of haem, dark circles under the eyes, and now this headache every now n then….. Its trying my patience! n I hate to go to the docs n m just not ready to go on ‘more pills’ now.

Donno why but these days it is difficult !

Have you ever faced a phase like this?????????

♥ ♥ Welcome February ♥ ♥

….a warm welcome to the month of Feb!

I love February.

For me it is ….

…a month of love !
…a month togetherness !
…a month full of occassions !
…a month of lotsa gifts !
…a month of less working days !
…a month when we get paid the earliest !

So this February is gonna be the same rocking month with so many lovely moments. And we are off to a very awaited vacation next weekend….. Hopefully I ll be able to put up some nice pics once m back !!

Jan end was good. Had a college alumni get together and lots of shopping

Will be back soon ……

Till then….Happy reading ! Lots of wishes !

Together we stand !

Finally there is another ‘aman ki asha’.

I wish the two lost siblings get to good terms….
We’ll be so much stronger and undefiable together once we stop wasting our power n energies on each other……
I am not sure but I would love to believe that the present generation on the other side of the LOC feels the same way…..

All I can do at the moment is to wish luck to the AKA team!!

~ Good Wishes ~

A girl, A boy & A marriage !!

“…….You *should* follow this coz now you’re married.”
Isn’t this something really common to hear after one ties the nuptial knot.

I agree that a marriage brings in a plentiful of significant changes in one’s life, lifestyle and social being.

But I never have been able to understand why a marriage should impose changes on the person’s basic identity, nature and habits.

Most often with the female end of the knot is the one expected to be ready to forget herself completely and *adjust happily* in the new surroundings. Why doesn’t she get the freedom to ‘be herself’. From the day 1 she steps into the new phase of her life, she is expected to dress as per the *rules* and not her choice, she is expected to be an expert chef (even though she never cooked at her home, just like any other daughter in the in-law family), she is expected to follow all rituals and so on…………. Why isn’t she asked for her choice !

Not being female chauvenistic, I agree that the male counterpart in the relation is not spared too. Where bachelorhood gave him the freedom to enjoy life by his laws, a marriage pushes him into unsaid responsibilities, especially financial !

I have no complains with this association called *marriage*. But yes if it is all about changing the people at the two ends, I do question its existence in the society. Why can’t a marriage be just ‘all about sharing and all about caring’….sharing all responsibilities and gradually welcoming all unforeseen changes !

What do you say??

We all live with the objective of being happy… our lives are all different and yet the same !

I miss her…

…badly !

Few years back as I stepped into the college, the first girl from my batch, whom I came across was She…a slender figure, big eyes, sharp features, tender lips and a very lovely smile…
Though we weren’t classmates but somehow we shared a chemistry..!
We both could never enjoy the chit-chats with the gal gangs…and this was how we came really close to be the best of friends ever…

She was the sweetest girl I had ever met.. Hardworking, helping, very caring, emotional, practical and forgiving…I thank the college days for giving me the company of this lovely lady..

We would stay up late just to talk to each other..we could talk endlessly on anything around..never had a meal without her since the day i came to know her…We would skip the dinners just to avoid the seniors and cook maggi and coffee at half past 1 in the night to fill our craving tummies… Everything was so much fun with her… Whether the ups or the downs of life, we would be with each other forever…….

But then, destiny had her own rude plans…
August 2003, we had gone on the college vacation… We all returned college as per the plans but she didnt.. 23rd was her birthday.. I was so sure that she would come and we would all have a grand celebration…. I had decorated our room with balloons, paper strips…some gifts on her bed…. but she didnt come….. Finally I called at her place….Nobody answered….Then another number…finally it was her mom…. She told me that my dear friend was very sick and could not talk…..
I was taken aback…!
Those were the days when the mobile phone was not too popular or easy to afford..The only means of connecting were the local PCO booths…

I would call up her mom at least twice a day to find out if she was getting better or when she would be coming…

26th Aug 2003, I called her up…..Her maternal uncle took the call…..and with a breaking voice he said..”she’s no more…she passed away a few mins back………..”

I couldn’t say a word…….and then I broke into tears…. I had never seen death so closely…

After a few hours I got a call from her mom…She was crying bitterly….I wiped off my tears and tried to console her.. She had called to tell me that the last thing that my friend spoke in the ICU was that she wanted to talk to me to which her mom had said that they will call me and make us talk once she gets better…. tears were running down my cheeks and I was still so unable to believe everything….

I don’t know what I was upto but for sure I believed and I still believe that she’ll come back some day and push me hard for not speaking to her for so long…. I somehow still believe that this was just a nightmare and like everything this shall pass too………
I can still feel her presence around and I still feel like talking to her….

She had Leukemia (Blood Cancer)…Her parents, her elder sister and her uncle all were doctors but the monster called Cancer did not give any of them a chance to save her…….I wish there was a cure…n I’ll be really glad when we have a proper one in place…. I lost my friend in a matter of less than a week from when she was detected the prey to the disease…..

Since that day, I have always feared to make friends coz I feel that whenever I have a close friend destiny takes him/her away from me………and now I really dont wanna lose any single being in my life…….

Some losses are so irrepairable… I miss her a lot……

Time to make new resolutions :)

..M back!
Had an awesome long weekend and am couting minutes to the next one.
1. I have got my house almost set up
2. I found out a good maid (eureka!)
3. Worked out the net connection…and now it sucks comepletely !!!
4. Had a trip to Girivan and Mulshi dam
5. Made amazing ‘Gajar ka halwa’ (for the first time in my life, trust me it was just too good)
6. We spent some ‘quality’ time with each other and friends alike !

Just a few more days and we’ll all step into the new year…

Looking back at this year which is soon gonna end,
…I smile, I cry,
…I lol, I say WTF,
…I thank God, I say ‘why me?’,
…I can feel the immense love, I can spit at the hatred,
…I cry in joy, I cry in pain !!!

2009 started with loads of painful moments for me. DH was away and for the first time I had a new year start without him by my side….and believe me it was the worst of the beginnings of the year…..
I just cannot forget that night with my irritating, senseless, disrespectful, insane roomie(i hate to think about her….gimme some more bad words plssss) who made the night all hell by playing the loud harsh south indian songs and arguing on top of her voice (with all bad words) with me when I asked her to lower down the volume…. Ohh dat was hell of a moment…….I used the F#&@ word for the first time

Jan 2009 – Bad, Worse, Worst !!! A management and a team I would hate to work with. Month end, I put down my papers! I was stuck so badly………Didnt know a way out. Had to manage a lot of things all alone. But yes, I learnt a lot from all this… My conception of ‘almost everyone good in the corporate world’ shattered to pieces… I could realise how mean people are around…. and most of all I couldnt believe the junk of irresponsible people i had in my surroundings who wouldnt speak up for the sake of anyone even though they know the things are so wrong !!! All I could say wa FTW !!!!! and yes that A$$#*&@ of the manager and parasitic teammates……… (Forgive me, I cannot use a single good adjective, and my soul wouldnt let me leave the place blank, i still feel they deserve so much bad in their lives, vindictive I am for sure)…. I can never forget them…. Good News: THEY ARE ALL SCREWED UP IN THEIR DESTINIES BY NOW

Feb 2009 – He returned. Things started settling down… We were off for the biggest day of our lives… Lovely days…I had my strength all back. I knew I was ready to face what comes.

Mar 2009 – It was a great time…busy with family and friends…It was so much a nice feeling having parents visit us in ‘My Home’ for the first time. And yes.. His budday…

Apr 2009 – I spent most of my time facing interviews and studying and by the end of it all Recession was taking on my nerves…I was too upset with myself.

May 2009 – I had decided to stand still at this biggest shake in my life.. Joblessness had already overpowered my confidence…I knew I was not destined to this and I found out a way……. Joined as a trainer for MOSS 2007 admin… Technical knowledge is always useful.

June 2009 – My budday and it was one of the longest durations i had spent with my bro since my college years.. It was all quality time and i was loving it thoroughly !! Meanwhile I got an offer with a US MNC (didnt join there though.)

July 2009 – I joined my current organisation. Life was totally back with a bang.I got nice people to work with, and effective and people oriented management. Everything started settling down. I was happy.

Aug 2009 – I had gained the work life balance. This was a time when I was very pleased and contented.

Sep 2009 – We marked our 7th year of being together and then there was my trip to Israel. September was amazing and I cannot forget those hours nd hours of video chats with DH.

Oct 2009 – Festivals, Trip to home and loads of shopping !

Nov 2009 – The month of change ! Where there were changes happening all around me in office there were more changes to follow at home. DH decided to move on with his career..got a couple of nice opportunities and also we looked out for a new accomodation near office. Life was getting better in every way.

Dec 2009 – Last but never the least… I LOVE DECEMBER in general… no reasons why! My Bro & DH get their dream jobs. We moved into a new house..bigger n better….and now i can walk down to my office… We get so much more time to spend together.

All in all….2009 brought to me a lot. A lot of smiles..some new relations…some new friends and a whole lot of practicality in attitude. This year firmed my belief in love more and more and I am so happy I gotta spend my life with a wonderful person………..

I am looking forward to the the year ahead…and here are my resolutions :

1. I will drink lots of water (i drink way too less water and the doc says i should improve!)
2. I’ll try to spend lots of quality time with DH and our family.
3. Will try to be a little more frequent to my blog.
4. Will try to be a better human being

And few things I seriously look forward to in the coming year:

1. A house of our own
2. DHs favourite car
3. Some nice travel plans

Till my net connection recovers.. I wish you all a wonderful year ahead !!! May you be blessed with more loved ones, more smiles and more reasons to cherish each moment !!

What better than a long weekend to start the year Welcome 2010 !!!!!

On the go…

1. I moved in,in the new house on Saturday.
2. Have been terribly unwell since almost a week…was coughing like a 90 yr old granny
3. Have no internet connection in the new home till now.
4. The house needs to be set up from scratch…..means I am loaded with work.
5. Now I can walk to my office
6. I can wake up late
…..and many more

I’ll be back as soon as I get the net connection thingy done !

Till Then….

WiSh U a VeRy HaPpY fEsTiVe SeAsOn !!

Merry Christmas All